One thing I’ve noticed since I’ve started shooting more boudoir is that nobody is really clear on what it is. My mom asked my sister if women choose to do boudoir shoots to make images that provide sexual gratification to men. I’ve also heard women say that their husbands think boudoir images are an invasion of their sex life. This is not at all what I’m going for. So I’m taking a step back and looking at why I want to shoot boudoir.
I think what attracts me to boudoir, is that it’s a visual way to tell someone that she’s beautiful. Beautiful for herself, not beautiful in the way society expects her to be, or in the way a man would expect her to be, or for any other reason, just because she is, and that’s ok. When I think about doing a session myself, my excuse that always stops me is ”I’ll loose some weight first, the photographer won’t see any beautiful in me” Which is sad, and something I know I need to work on internally. Usually I don’t allow myself to feel beautiful or sexy. I don’t know why it’s something I’ve always done since I was young. I’ve been the silly, funny, strange one, never the beautiful one. I’m not looking for any shout-outs on how fucking amazing I am haha. What I’m saying is that there are times when I feel beautiful or sexy, flashes of confidence, but I’ve trained my brain into thinking otherwise and these flashes fade away. I think if I had the balls to go through with a boudoir shoot, and I could get even one image that made me feel beautiful, I would print it and keep it forever to remind me that I don’t have to be a silly little girl, it’s ok to feel beautiful. So maybe if I’m not ready for that, I can give that feeling to someone else.
C’s session was late last year, and she was so confident, makeup-less, and beautiful. I love these images, and she says they make her feel artistic and sexy. So stoked. :)